one year ago today.

one year ago today.
one year ago today i was frantically finishing knitting a scarf.
one year ago today i had been on hospital bedrest for 40 days.
one year ago today i was anxiously awaiting our newest arrival.
one year ago today i was secretly hoping L would arrive today because
then he would be born on the 12th of the month like both of his siblings.
(boy, did God have a much better birth day planned.)
one year ago today i had no idea what this year was going to look like.
not one tiny bit.
one year ago today i was pregnant.
one year ago today i was very, very pregnant.



today, i am able to see how this past year has been much more fulfilling than i could have ever imagined.
ever.

and this article so beautifully articulates where i am beginning to head with my gift.
it is a must read.
a must.



david crowder's "how he loves" song has been resonating with me as of late:

He is jealous for me,
loves like a hurricane, i am a tree,
bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
when all of a sudden,
i am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
and i realize just how beautiful You are,
and how great Your affections are for me.

and oh, how He loves us so,
oh how He loves us,
how He loves us all

yeah, He loves us,
oh! how He loves us,
oh! how He loves us,
oh! how He loves.

we are His portion and He is our prize,
drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
if grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
and Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
i don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
when I think about, the way

81. unexpected gifts
82. surprises
83. pure joy
84. simple joys
85. how He loves us